This feels different. I mean, of course it’s different, I get that. This feels like a hidden gift that we are waiting for. But while we wait, there is no round belly to rejoice over. We are waiting without anything tangible. So we trust. Isn't that what faith is?
Now faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see. Hebrews 11:1
We trust that God will choose the right family to be connected to ours. We trust that while we wait we will be prepared for whatever God has planned. We trust and we wait.
I am actually the worst at waiting for anything. Because, seriously, we aren’t even done with our home study yet and I’m already blogging about waiting. I am like a giant bratty kid when it comes to waiting. If I get an idea in my head about something that I want to happen-- I get a little crazy. Ask my husband about a potential kitchen remodel (crazy). I get a little obsessive, looking to outline all the details, hoping to get a clearer picture of the final plan. But waiting for this new person is so different. I have no idea what God has planned. There are no glimpses of this little one hidden in my carefully laid plans. So what am I left to do?
Be still and know that God is God. His plans are greater than anything I’d put together. I’m going to do a little rejoicing in this waiting today. I will fill out 9 more forms, talk about family history with my husband, maybe go get fingerprinted and be joyful in this awesome journey.